Ball of Noise

Today today today....was interesting. It reminded me of a time in middle school when I belive in this strange conspirancy that if something good happened early in the day, then the rest of my day would be awful, but if something bad happened instead, then the rest of my day would be great.

Luckily I don't believe in such nonsense, but today definatly kind of felt like that. I mean sure, some good stuff happened. But some comments and events also happened as well.

The one that affected me the most was when someone I knew told me they didnt trust me. That. Hurt. A lot. I mean, imagine if someone told you flat out they don't trust you? I definatly was not in a good mood for the rest of the night.

And then, when I feel like I finally got out of my "ball of noise" (for those of you who dont know, a Ball of Noise is a theater game where there is an imaginary ball and when each individual person is handed the ball, they have to create a character or thing and make a sound that corresponds to it) and defeated it, I see it coming to haunt others, and it scares me. Being in your ball of noise is not good. No me gusta. When you are in the ball of noise, millions upon millions of sounds, fealings, actions, and events are srounding and suffocating you, until you can't think or feel or do. You're nothing, because the ball consumes you. The simplest things bother you, you take things the wrong way. Its horrible.

And...its hard to get out of as well. Not only can your friends not help you, but the only thing that can help you is yourself, because its consuming YOU If I had to show you my Ball of Noise, here's what it would probably look like


Hideous huh? Now can you imagine trying to get out of it? No bueno.